Chuffed!!!

I'm over the moon, my image has been chosen by CUBE for their press releases and website to represent my years exhibition...

It was decided blind, they didn't know who's picture was who's...

You can see the image at the website: http://www.cube.org.uk/exhibitiondetails/bloom/54

This is what it looks like:

To Stop.... And Face Up To The Music

This last project has been hard, both mentally and emotionally. Its drained me but maybe not so much in a bad way... BUT I had hit a wall, the kind that life throws at you that seems insurmountable, only to be given a reprieve at the last minute (thanks AJ and Marc).

I felt that perhaps I was stuttering, rehashing the same thing in different ways... no one wants to see the shit rehashed, the last thing I want to do is bore people. Anyway, AJ and Marc gave some advice... each in there own way, but it basically came down to the same message... I am avoiding the real issue by skirting around the edges!


I make no bones that I have issues, this project has become one of facing up to myself, stripping off all the crap, so there's nothing to hide behind.... so thats what I did.... strip.

It was just me and the camera. This is some of what I created, it may or may not be used:

Each means something to me, I feel a bit shaken by the impact of the effect it has had upon mw... but they are personal things I will talk about another time... or not.

Hard To Face It

Sometimes, you can skirt an issue... especially in photography. Sometimes no matter how well you think your saying something, you never quite make it... you get to a point and then back off.

Maybe its time to face up and say what I have to say.... thats what I'm going to try to do in the next few shoots, hopefully I'll get there.

But in the mean time:

What worries me most... more than my actions to date... is when I look into my eyes I will see that I am just like them.... what then???

I tried for so long not to be a 'real man', that when the injury happened that robbed me of so much that it had a galvanising effect... what it took with one hand (literally), it gave with another, and I fought to be the man I had tried to deny I was for so long.... confusing, but when is life anything but?